“I’m so sorry!” I gushed again. I quickly yanked my toddler from behind the dressing room curtain shielding my half-dressed and good-humored friend.
She laughed and replied with a genuine “it’s fine” as she carried on slipping into another stunning gown. Embarrassed, I brought myself upright once again, but without much time to recover. A moment later I was whisked away to restrain my daughter just as her tiny sprawled fingers reached for a pristine white gown to tear from its perfectly placed hanger. She stiffened her body and squealed as I plucked her up, thoroughly unhappy that I had interrupted her reign of terror. (If her older brother was here right now, this would definitely be when he’d declare his embarrassment and try to pretend he didn’t know any of us.) Nevertheless, I was left to my own devices for damage control today.
A bridal boutique is simply not the ideal environment for the untamed species that is a one year old.
Photo credit: Charisse Kenion
The pursuit continued for the duration of our shopping date, punctuated by brief moments of awe and many compliments as I watched my friend make a big decision for her big day. Even in those pauses though, I was keeping track of my little tyrant and planning the next interception.
Long after I’d left the boutique, it occurred to me that my own pursuit of my child was not unlike God’s pursuit for me. Just as I dodged delicate decor, weaved between racks of gowns and rows of accessories, and dove with abandon to catch my daughter before she was able to do damage, God dodges and weaves and dives to pursue me. Even in the moments when it seems His attention is elsewhere, He’s still aware of where I am and the paths I’m taking. He’s always waiting for His next opportunity to intercept when I need His guidance or protection.
“I can never escape from your Spirit! I can never get away from your presence! If I go up to heaven, you are there; if I go down to the grave, you are there. If I ride the wings of the morning, if I dwell by the farthest oceans, even there your hand will guide me, and your strength will support me.”
There are no giant mirrors I can hide behind, no bench seats I can duck below, and no pedestals I can climb on top of where He can’t reach me. Even in my wandering and shenanigans He is chasing after me without ceasing, pursuing my soul for my protection out of His great love for me.
God- our father- never stops. He never gets tired or resigns to let us run rampant away from Him (no matter how far off we may feel.) He never shrugs His shoulders and says “oh well” assuming He’s done all that He can do. He stays close because His diligence in pursuing us (much like His love) knows no bounds.
“I could ask the darkness to hide me and the light around me to become night— but even in darkness I cannot hide from you. To you the night shines as bright as day. Darkness and light are the same to you.”
Psalms 139:11-12 NLT
If you feel far off or disconnected from God today- take heart. You may not see Him at this moment, but He sees you and He is never more than an arm’s length away. If He watches out for even the sparrows (Mathew 10:29-31,) rest assured He watches out for You.